Convict, Addict, Alcoholic

well thank you to L. for writing to me and waking me up. I have just been feeling sorry for myself and busy at work. I can realy be such a baby. Let see things that have happened since I last wrote: 1. Got a criminal speeding ticket doing 72 in a 45. this one should be quite the pricey lesson. go to courtt wednesday and will fill us all in. 2. got pissed off and resentful yet again at a god damned meeting. some soberer than thou fuck talking about his fucking spiritual guru shit, after I mention the fact that I feel like i tread water sometimes, go to the gym and the eat ice cream, or pray and meditate then jerk off to porn. fuck him, i'm who I am, any way, i just don't think rich married guys get to talk about how poor lonely single guys should or shoudn't cope with their lives. 3. sport fucked a good friend, worst sex ever, yuck, still feel stupid as hell about that one. traded depression and self pity for guilt shame and remorse, didn't make me feel better, just different, ahh fuck it. 4. got elected GSR of my home group. Wow, still sober, sponsoring guys, got a new sponsor who i'm meeting with tomorrow to sit and chat and what not. oh and that fucking tramp I was fucking back in august or whenever the hell it was is fucking one of my firends now, and the 33 year old woman I love is all fucked up and still seeing her dick head x boyfriend, no wonder I think god is a ruthless prick. well not quite ruthless, but still a prick, and not all the time, but I just don't quite understand the system.so any questions?