Convict, Addict, Alcoholic

Day 1017 - Well I'm back! Yes! Today I woke up very tired but not so fucked emotionally. I just prayed and thanked God and asked him to keep me sober and direct my thinking. I do remember an initial "if i started drinking all this(pain, fear, etc.) would go away", I got scared and prayed. But now I think about how true that phrase is. All this would go away: My job, my friends, my relationship with my family, my more-often-than-not emotional okness and serenity. I went to The Hiliter last night and had a blast. E's girl M. works there and payed for me all night. I had no cover, and then M told this girl to come sit with me. She was awesome!! It was my second time at a strip club and it was hot! This girl really had me. The first time I went to a club I had to convince myself to get into it, and it didn't work well. This girl just sat with me and cuddled, then rubbed my head (#1 guard length all around), and when she gave me dances she was a freak. She was kissing me, and licking my chest and shit, I don't know if she was into me or not, but damn she was worth all the money M spent on me, I tell you what. It's putting a smile on my face as we speak. She'll have me comming back for more, damn women }:) . My shirt smelled so good when I got home, it was just rad. It might be a while before I wash it again. The Hiliter rules, just ass everywhere. and if I've said it before, I'll say it again, I'm a big fan of ASS. Love you guys who are stoping by, please email me back some feedback, just want to know who's out there.